Hindsight is a wonderful thing, if I were able to turn back time there are literally hundreds of things which I would change. As there is little chance that time travel will ever be an option I must learn to move on from my mistakes with my head held high.
If time travel were an option then I’d be sure to head back at least twenty odd years to rectify some of my biggest blunders most of which took place during school, college and University. Certainly I’d alter my educational choices in terms of the courses that I chose to take, I’d also work a damn site harder in terms of studying but mainly I’d change the relationships that I chose to enter into.
I know ex’s are called ex’s for a blumming good reason, in my case there are only one or two of my ex’s which I’d ever consider speaking to again! The mistakes which we make we often learn from and in some way or other every experience should be seen as progress as we develop along the journey. There are some situations though that should never happen or need to be endured and when I look back I physically cringe at how sightless, stupid and screwed up I was back then all because of a bloke.
Not just one bloke, there were many blokes and no I’m not like that but not one of them was anywhere close enough to right for me. I seemed to struggle without support from a significant other yet in reality I could have gone it alone just fine.
These days I may be married, I may be a Mother but I am also an independent woman. I may not have made the correct career choices and as a result I am now lacking in the job department. However, I am no longer a doormat which lacks confidence or self-belief. I am no longer the nervous wreck which I once was.
The sheer amount of crap which I have endured throughout the years has moulded me into a more self-sufficient, self-assured and sassier lady. It’s only when I take a look back that I can actually see the differences, the changes which only time was able to make.
“I’m a b*tch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way”
(Meredith Brooks – B*tch)
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