Feeling Ancient & Self Critical

My apologies for not having posted this earlier but I’ve had a full on day with work then entertaining the kids on their final evening before returning to Nursery and School tomorrow.

I never usually say this but I am actually looking forward to getting the routine back into motion. As much as I love having the kids home for the holidays there are only so arguments over Lego and such like that I can withstand.

I’d rather not go grey before my time. Having sat with the hubby and the kids watching an episode of Gladiators from 1995 I already feel fairly ancient as it is! I must have been only ten or twelves years old when those pumped up, oil covered, lycra clad legends dueled upon the podium, ran around in oversized hamster balls and swung from the hoops scissor dropping their opponents yet it feels far from twenty years ago!

So much other than my height  has changed since way back then. I’m married, I’ve got children, a house, a dog and all those domestic things which are seen to be the social norm. Whilst I am incredibly proud of everything that I have achieved and that I am today, I am still completely clueless upon a lot of things but I guess that’s human nature right?

Friends have come and gone, my family has expanded, our house has been extended and whilst everything around me seems to grow and change I feel as if I’m stood stagnant and still. I am hopelessly impatient and terribly self-critical but until that new job pops up I think this is the way that I’m going to continue to feel.

I need a path, I need a change and I need… more wine. See? I’ll never learn! Let’s hope a hot bath and a good nights sleep makes all the difference and I wake feeling sparkly and new.