It’s too late to be sitting alone in the Office but for some unknown reason my head hasn’t powered down just yet. There’s a whole load of stuff running through my mind, the endless jobs which I am yet to complete, the many possibilities that tomorrow brings and a few other random bits of information which always seem to pop up around midnight when I consider attempting sleep.
I haven’t had time to sit down and to work through the ‘usual jobs’ so far this week. I haven’t read many blogs, nor have I responded to a great deal of emails other than those I consider urgent.
Following having my final wisdom tooth extracted on Monday I have found myself feeling totally unfocused. I’m not sure whether it’s the pain relief or my body begging me to rest and recover. I am simply not on the ball, I can’t even find the fecking ball!
It’s just like the old saying “the lights are on but nobody is at home”. My eyes are open but there is very little registering at this current time. I am sure that I will find my mojo at some point soon but until then I’ll amble along in a dream like state wondering ‘Is This Earth?’.
I can’t wait until this month is over if I’m honest, I’ve never been a huge fan of January. Everyone’s either skint, on some kind of desperate diet, depressed, lonely or simply bored.
It’s usually cold, wet, dark and miserable outside, there’s sod all on the television and nobody can be bothered or can afford to go out. No wonder so many of us book a summer holiday at this time of year, we are all desperate to escape the misery!
I wouldn’t say I was miserable, I am far from it considering all that we have done in the past few months. I am just a bit fed up with my own failings in the never ending job search and with the endless wet weather which seems to plague the North West.
I guess there is such a thing as ‘Blue Monday’ but being me, I am a little late to join the party as I seem to be suffering from ‘Gloomy Thursday’. Let’s hope that come morning (I realise that technically it is early morning as I write this) I will feel a little lighter, the rain might have stopped and possibly, just maybe things might go my way for once.