Looking back at my life it feels as if I’ve spent the majority of my time living in a never-ending soap opera. Theres always been kind of drama taking place, it’s certainly never been plain sailing nor I guess has it ever been a bore.
Thinking back I have been through some incredibly difficult and challenging times, god knows how I got through some of them yet here I am today. I’ve had my heart stamped upon, twisted, rocked, shocked and broken yet it has continued to grow.
I wear my heart upon my sleeve and have never been one to bottle things up or to hide from the truth. I have always been open, expressive and honest with my thoughts and feelings. Whilst I have lived through some seriously dark times I have never kept anybody in the dark about anything.
I am fierce and massively protective of my family and friends, I am fiery and wild never afraid to step in to support and to defend those that I love and care for. I have been wounded time and time again yet continue to get up and to fight for the things that matter.
Being human I have made countless mistakes over the years for I have been foolish, selfish and naive. I have worked hard to learn from my mistakes and despite putting endless pressure on myself to do better it seems that I will never quite be good enough.
I am like marmite, people either love or hate me. There is no in-between, it is either one extreme or the other. I am handed constant criticism which I have learnt to accept and has as times become a catalyst for change.
I am incredibly lucky to have a supportive and loving husband, he is my rock and without him I simply wouldn’t be where I am now. We have a beautiful family which I am hugely proud of, they are my entire World, my unit and together we are a team.
Over the years I have learnt to control my fire, to hold my tongue and to allow others to walk upon me much like a doormat simply to keep the peace. For I may fight fire with fire but I would never wish for my family to get caught in the cross fire.
One day things will be fair, things will be right, things will make sense. I may be a Mother and a Wife but I am still Rachel, I am still that fiery, fierce girl who fights for whats right, who wants the very best and no less.