Change Is Afoot

Things feel as if they may be about to change, I can’t say exactly how or why as of yet but I have this feeling within that the World as I know it is about to shift.

I love my life ‘just as it is’ and whilst I want to better myself I don’t wish to sacrifice time with my kids to make any changes. I guess if something is going to change then this might be the case but I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it all.

Change Is Afoot

I currently leave my kids with their Daddy for three evenings and one day each week whilst I go out to work. If I were to work more sociable hours then I would be able to have my evenings and weekends back but would miss out on those precious hours during the day which E is at home following her mornings in Nursery.

I guess come September none of this will matter as E will have started school and our time together will be cut short whether I like it or not.

I am incredibly lucky to have been able to spend almost four years with my little lady watching her grow into a perfect little Princess. I have enjoyed every moment and am saddened to think that this may soon change. However, there are many other aspects to consider which tend to sway me otherwise.

I’ve actually added up the hours that I currently spend with my children from when they wake till when they go to bed minus time spent at School, Nursery or other activities and I’ve worked out that I will only lose around four of these with E but would gain a further thirteen hours with J if I were to take on a new role with different hours which I guess is a huge win.

There is also the whole financial thing to consider which is a no brainer given that I currently earn peanuts. I could possibly earn almost three times as much as I currently earn which would make a massive difference to our family.

Finally there is my self-esteem, it’s taken a fair amount of battering over the past few years with redundancy and other workplace issues. I need to make a fresh start, rebuild my confidence and get myself ‘back on the horse’.

I’m not a great lover of change but feel that now is the time to take a few steps into the unknown and give it a go.

“When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I’ll always want you near
You say that things change my dear”

Tori Amos – Winter

 

 

RachelSwirl

27 Comments

  1. February 4, 2017 / 11:55 pm

    I also don’t like change but sometimes things have to change to make things better. Good luck with your voyage into the unknown and hope it all works out for the better for you. x

  2. February 5, 2017 / 5:28 pm

    These are the reasons why I became a registered child minder, I spent time with my children and earn, quite good money, at the same time!

    • February 5, 2017 / 9:06 pm

      I love being able to spend time with my kids at the moment.

  3. angiemwebster77
    February 5, 2017 / 8:10 pm

    Change is a tricky old thing isn’t it. I’ve often wondered if I would be better off in a workplace job rather than trying make my way in the world of the self-employed but I want to be at home and I know I can do this, I just know it. I wish you the best of luck with your changes x

    • February 5, 2017 / 9:08 pm

      I am not sure I will find out though hopefully.

  4. angiemwebster77
    February 5, 2017 / 8:13 pm

    I’ve just wrote a comment and I got a bad gateway message so I will try again, I basically was saying best of luck with your changes, I hope everything works out the way you want x

    • February 5, 2017 / 9:07 pm

      weird it seems to be freaking out today for some reason or other.

  5. Family Makes
    February 6, 2017 / 12:33 pm

    What do you do for your work at the moment Rachel? I guess your situation is part of the ongoing working mum quandry – work more hours to provide for your kids financially, or spend more time with them at home. Whatever you do, I’m sure the family will adapt, and appreciate that you’re doing it for them too x

    • February 6, 2017 / 7:58 pm

      Thanks I currently work behind a bar

  6. February 7, 2017 / 9:19 am

    I’m not a one for change either, but as they say change can always be a good things. #TuesdaysTreasures

  7. February 7, 2017 / 10:42 am

    I try to make small changes so that I don’t become too overwhelmed. I also try to look at things in an exciting way even though I’m terrified inside! No useful advice from me whatsoever! But I enjoyed reading your blog. Its my first time joining in with #TuesdayTreasures x

  8. lvdberg1
    February 7, 2017 / 10:51 am

    I’m always finding it’s easier to resist than embrace change. But don’t they say that when one door closes, another one opens? That’s my experience anyway. Change means moving forward and I think that’s always a good thing 🙂 Good luck! #TuesdayTreasures

  9. February 7, 2017 / 11:59 am

    I recently wrote a blog about a ‘Post-It note exercise ‘ which helps you to focus on the things you want most from life and to weigh up the best choices for your career (and you!). My huge change was sadly forced by redundancy (I’m sorry to hear you’ve experienced that too), but I’m a firm believer in grabbing new opportunities by the horns and giving them a go! Good luck with yours xxx #tuesdaytreasures

    • February 7, 2017 / 12:04 pm

      Thanks Amy , redundancy can either make you break you. Sadly it broke me

  10. RaisieBay
    February 7, 2017 / 12:51 pm

    Change can be so scary but as your quote says, it can be gorgeous in the end. I hope all your changes go well. x

  11. February 7, 2017 / 1:58 pm

    It’s a difficult thing, I’ve made a huge sacrifice financially to be able to work part time from home and stay home with the mini man, I know I’m lucky to be able to spend so much time with himbut the financial strain often gets to me #tuesdaytreasures

  12. February 7, 2017 / 8:08 pm

    I’m right with you…I hate change and we’ve had a few years full of it! I too was made redundant and have gone from working 40 hours a week to 18. I firmly believe there must be a way Mum’s can earn good money and be at home with their kids…I’m just yet to find it. I was told about a 3 day a week, work from home job that could be mine at the beginning of the year and I was so excited! When it turned out not to be available after all I actually cried! It is so frustrating! Good luck with any changes that you decide to make #TuesdayTreasures

    • February 7, 2017 / 10:06 pm

      I would have cried too, being a Mum and having a career is sooo hard!

  13. February 8, 2017 / 1:22 am

    They say a change is as good as a rest right? Sometimes you just have to go for it and work it all out as it happens. Pros and cons to every situation but every situation always works itself out in the end 😉 xxx #tuesdaytreasures

  14. February 8, 2017 / 8:08 pm

    Change is always scary, but I think that it is good to shake things up a little. Your changes seem like they will benefit your family life much more than now and that must feel exciting! I hope it all goes well for you!

  15. February 10, 2017 / 7:00 am

    Change is scary but look at it as a new adventure in your life x #tuesdaytreasures

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